| i really dislike judgmental people. and i have discovered, largely recently, that most of the people who consider themselves "christians" are, in fact, really judgmental people. now, i'm not saying that i'm above that--in fact, i'm pretty sure i can be rather judgmental at times, and this entry is, in and of itself, quite judgmental, and i'm also not saying that i'm not a christian. but i feel like the fact that i can admit to being judgmental separates me from the others. the people that i'm talking about are the ones who preach acceptance and understanding, but when it comes down to it... they are the most arrogant, judgmental jerks you would ever meet. i'm surrounded by them at school. some of them do a good job of hiding it. others, not as much. but they judge everyone--including their fellow christians. and this is what really bothers me--when someone looks at you and evaluates your faith and whether or not you are a "good christian" without talking to you about it. they're completely used to be surrounded by people who are kind-hearted and considerate, so they look past that, and largely judge what they see on how vocal someone is about their faith. if you aren't one of those christians who runs around, shouting "look at me! i am a christian, see!? i am a christian," then you are clearly, and obviously, a bad christian. you can be the strongest believer, and show that through your actions instead of words, and be labeled a "bad christian," but you be a mean, unkind person, but be loud about your faith, and suddenly--you're a "good christian." i know i'm not a perfect christian. there isn't a such thing. and there isn't a such thing as a "bad" christian or a "good" christian--just christians. we are all trying and striving to be this supposed "good" christian, but we all fall short. we all fall short of being worthy of god's love, but he loves us anyway. just because i don't go around yelling that i'm a christian doesn't mean i'm not. it also doesn't mean that i'm uncomfortable talking about my faith. it just means that i have always been in a situation where it has made more sense to me to express my faith through actions instead of words. the reason i am such a happy, joyful person is because god loves me. he looks past the fact that i'm crazy, get myself over-commited and do stupid things. and because of that, it is my responsibility to show god's love to other people... through my love. we are all part of god's creation, and just because someone is different than me, or makes decisions i don't agree with, or whatever, doesn't mean that i can't accept them. |
